Plain sailing, briefly
Sometimes it feels like all my blog posts are about Mabel, because she's the cutest, and she says all the funniest things, and maybe Monkey's just running out of material for me because he's so old and jaded. And then weeks like this happen and the pendulum swings back and you think I should probably just shut up about my amazing five-year-old.
But I won't, just yet.
I just looked out the window. He and his dad are riding their bikes around in our nice quiet dead-end, and he looks as if he's been doing it for years. It's one of those moments that just makes you go all glowy and poetic inside. If he can ride a bike, he'll go far in life. It's like watching the beginning of his whole childhood - the bit I don't really get to be part of, but that he'll remember for his whole life.
A friend said that when her daughter turned five it hit her that her daughter's early childhood was over - and it's true: already we're at a point where I have to say that I just hope all that loving and holding and nursing and loving and general groundwork I put into his babyhood has paid off, because now we're off on a new adventure where I have to do much harder stuff, like being mean and probably making him hate me sometimes, and being firm and laying down rules and boundaries. I like to think we'll work it all out together, we two and our firstborn. Mabel will sail along in his wake, creating her own ripples and probably more than a few typhoons, but we'll have weathered most things first, and worst, with Monkey.
Yesterday he was crying because of a sequence of unfortunate events (let's say), and I went and found him wrapped up in his duvet on his bedroom floor, and I held him and told him how much his dad and I both love him, always, every day, and are so proud of all the things he does and how hard he tries on his bike and all the great ideas he has and the clever things he thinks and the wonderful person he's becoming.
I spend so much of every day requesting and repeating and entreating and - let's face it - nagging and shouting, that I really have to remember to tell him the good things from time to time. The worst possible thing would be if he didn't know about them because I spent all my time blogging about what a great kid I have, and forgot to tell him in person.

2 Comments:
Yes, I have said that before. Around 5, they start changing (and they have really changed by 8) but 5 does feel so seminal to me. 5 is a kid, not a small child, and the chances to create a happy early childhood are gone and you sort of have to say, "Well, that's that" and try to make the next phase the best we can.
I was discussing a similar topic recently with one of your friends (not a friend who lives near me, a friend who lives near you who I know from my previous life). I was saying that I really want to believe that all my sacrifices will have made a difference, but I'm not sure that it's not a crap shoot. She disagreed - she thinks it does make a difference in that we create higher expectations of our children and help them meet those (I'm paraphrasing). As I thought about it later, I decided this: All our work, all our sacrifices WILL make a difference with SOME children. And since we don't know whether they will make a difference with our own children or not, we just have to try.
TSM, I think it has to make a difference. Not necessarily any one specific sacrifice or change you made to your life because of them, but the entire ethos you hand on of how to live, how to consider others - that's what you want your children to pick up, and I think they will. (They might rebel against it at some point, but they'll know what's right even if they're not doing it just then.)
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