In case you were wondering
The photoshoot I was planning over Christmas never happened. The photographer had to cancel because of the snow, and I realised as the time went on that Monkey was just not in a good place for a photo session with a stranger, in a strange house. He would barely let me take photos of him, half the time. We'll try to do it when we're home in the summer, perhaps, when the weather will be more conducive to outdoors and Monkey will be the magical five. In the meantime, I'll just have to content myself with taking the photos myself, and maybe remembering to ask a friend to point and shoot now and then.
Monkey avoiding the camera (but thinking it's funny, not traumatic)Lately, Monkey has been getting himself dressed; shoes and socks and everything. Or sometimes everything except socks, but I'll put them halfway on so they're the right way round and let him do the rest. I'm not commenting on it overly, just taking it as the new normal, but I'm certainly liking it.
I just realised that I wrote this almost an entire year ago. Which basically means that for two years now (well, yes, Mabel is two, so that makes sense) I've been on the fence about a third baby - and I'm not getting any less impaled as time goes on. I'd be lying if I said I don't think about it pretty much every day - but not in the sense that I desperately want another baby. Most of the time I'm very happy not to do that, very happy to stick with two; but I still can't get myself to the point where I'm willing to close the door on the possibility of that one final flirtation with fate and genetics. I'm a little afraid that when Mabel heads off to school three mornings a week in September, I'll take one look at the notion of starting to work for money and decide that I need to preclude myself from such activities for a while longer. Which would be, you know, impractical, imprudent, and uneconomically sound.
Is there anything else you need me to catch you up on?
Labels: just a phase, photos, theoretical pregnancy, updates
posted by Maud @ 9:50 PM
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3 Comments:
I didn't get the baby urge till H was around 3, but then it hit hard and has not let up since. Only 18 months I keep telling myself.
So, I would definitely wait to schedule the vasectomy till after Mabel is 3. ;)
On the 3rd baby front. We had really never planned for more than 2, but we certainly felt those urgings and longings, and still do frankly, even though Ramona is 3.5 and certain things have been done to certain people's anatomies which would make getting pregnant very, very difficult. If it's any consolation, I decided that I can feel TWO ways about the situation. For example, I would LOVE to have a third child AND I do not want to have a newborn. I would LOVE to have a family of 5 AND I can not imagine our finances getting worse than they already are. For example. Something about the AND rather than the BUT helped me to see more clearly that a 3rd child was not the right decision for me or our family, no matter how much I wanted to be pregnant again or have a family of five.
Thanks, TSM, that's a nice attitude to cultivate. I suppose I just thought that at this stage I would have a more definite decision one way or the other. But then, not making a decision is still a decision, if you see what I mean.
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