Maybe my career counsellor was right when she said I should consider law. My best friend the solicitor never suffers from boredom at work. Of course, she’s run off her feet and insanely stressed. I don’t want to be that busy, but it’s not true that I shy away from hard work; I just think I do because indolence breeds indolence and at this stage I can barely remember what real work was like. The hardest I’ve ever worked was (a) waitressing and (b) in my first ever real job, where I didn’t even realise I was entitled to breaks, or that if I ended up working through lunch I could just take my lunch later. I turned up at 9.00 on the dot, worked like an industrious reading ant until 11.00 when I’d get a cup of coffee because all the architects (who shared the office) had their break then. But I’d scurry straight back to my desk rather than chatting. (In retrospect, this may also have been because the architects were all tall, handsome men in their late twenties, and I had a crush on at least one of them. I probably didn’t know what to say to any of them and was happier back at my desk.) Then work resumed till 1pm, when I’d go out to the shops for something to eat and read a book until the hour was up. And work work work till 5.00, when I’d be out the door and at the bus stop before you could say Jiminy Cricket. The thing is, we didn’t even have an Internet connection, and I didn’t know any computer games, so when I say I was working, I mean I really was. All the time. I was so focused during the day that for the first time ever I couldn’t read to relax in the evening.
I was only there for four months or so, because it had always been a temporary gig, though I’m sure they weren’t paying me much (or telling the accountant about me), and I’m willing to bet they never had a flunky work so hard after that.
Moral being: I’m overqualified, overskilled, underworked, and over here. Anyone want to give me a lovely job? Being busy doing something I know I can do well is one of the greatest natural highs I can get. I just forget that when the thing I’m doing right now is my 49th game of Minesweeper for the day.